" I believe that God has a perfect plan for my life. Maybe I can't see it or understand it...but I have faith and that alone is ENOUGH."
If you know me, and know me well, you know that I like to be in control. Loss of control scares me and I don't know how to respond at first. I fall into a rut and get down and out. Or maybe I'll lash out and go cray. Regardless, I always end up falling back on my faith. Not that it's a last resort, I just forget who's REALLY in control sometimes.
I've recently gone through some tough times. I mean we all go through tough times, and God knows I've had my fair share of obstacles. But there are sometimes things are gut wrenching and life changing. In these times I have to remember that I'm not in control...and as cliché as it sounds - everything happens for a reason. I have to find the good in it all and grow from it. Which sucks. I don't want to hear it better yet listen to it and do it.
Everyday I wake up I thank God for my sobriety. For my wonderful loving husband, who despite my shenanigans continually loves me unconditionally. For my family and friends and good health. For my faith and a loving God who, no matter how far I stray, is always there to pick up the pieces of my broken life.
Life's not easy. It's no fucking cakewalk. It's not fair and at times it down right sucks balls. But I'm strong. A survivor. And no matter what I refuse to let anyone or anything to get me down and make me doubt my faith.
All thing are possible through HIM who gives me strength.
Nuff' Said,
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You have always been and will always be one of the people that I "want to be like when I grow up". There is something about people who share similar experiences and obstacles or feelings or struggles or hopes or whatever that makes us feel less alone. It's like we found a light that is the same color as ours and had it turn on in a dark hallway! Keep writing this stuff! You never know who is reading it! Your honest and uplifting :) and that's a deadly combo! That type of positive and authentic attitude changes the world
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